Thursday, 23 February 2012

I'm Sorry

This is a bit of a message to my friend.
I want to say Sorry. We live so far apart and I met her on holiday but we promised each other we would stay friends and so far we have. Yet the strains of not seeing each other and living so far apart, makes our friendship difficult.
 We have different lives and so our only ways of communicating through the day is via text, however if one is having a bad day, they might not necessarily text the other, so a miscommunication happens.
 I really do miss her and I just want to say nobody is perfect.
I'm sorry, being such a happy person makes my low moments incredibly low and sometimes that means I say/write things I don't mean.

Tuesday, 21 February 2012

Don't judge.

Well hello there.
 Back to school after half term so got lots of work. Anyways I listen to a lot of music to help me get through the huge work load and it got me thinking.
Why do people judge people on what they listen to?
I mean, how can one person say that another person can/can't listen to something? Due to the fact they don't like it? Its just wrong.
I like most music. I got brought up on Frank Sinatra, Blondie and S club 7. Well and a lot more but you get the drift. This means that my music taste is broad. I love everything virtually.
Which is why I get annoyed when people say "oh you can't like JEDWARD" or "One Direction"...why not? Alot of people do! Ok, I'm not into fangirling or whatever it's called but there are a few people who i do love more than most. Yet when I say to someone "oh JEDWARD is awesome" they respond with something "but they are rubbish, you shouldn't be listening to them". Sorry, since when did it affect you?
 Everyone should be able to listen to whatever they want. Without getting judged. I'm not a big fan of Justin Bieber but I don't judge everyone who does. I admire them and have slight worries at their almighty admiration for the poor guy. Anyways all I'm saying is, Music is a part of everyone's lives. Don't control people to what makes them happy. Simple.
Rant over. x

Saturday, 18 February 2012

I'm sick of always making the effort.

Well hello there,
Do you ever get those moments when you wonder " if I died tomorrow,who would miss me?".
I get those from time to time and usually when I've been really busy that day. That's because when I'm busy, I have no time to text people and have a chat. Which is why when someone texts me first, I'm happy.
When I have plenty of time to myself and I'm happy, I don't mind making an effort to text people. Even when I'm slightly busy, I'll text those who I know would text me first. Yet when I'm really sad, I'll text no one. I'll wait for someone to make the effort, but nobody does.
Like today for example. I went to work at around 10, so didn't bother to text anybody. I hoped by the time I'd finished, someone would have text me, but no! So I text my friend saying " hope you have a good day", no reply. Fair enough but she then had the cheek to update her Facebook status "via mobile". Little things like this really annoy me hence why I often wonder; If I was to die tomorrow, out of my friends,who would care?
Rant over.

Thursday, 16 February 2012

Live your life. Don't let somebody live it for you.

Well hello there.
As a big fan of twitter, I spend alot of time on there. What I find so remarkable about it, is the amount of people who feel pressurised to look a certain way. Why?
I'm not one of these people who is religious but I believe that we were created to all be individual and unique. Magazines nowadays post pictures of stick thin models who are apparently gorgeous, which all ages can access and subconsciously promote these people as the "right" way to look. Well if I'm honest, I'd rather be wrong.
As someone who has experienced many body issues and knows many who have also, this isn't the right message we need to be giving out to people. We need to tell girls and boys alike, that it's ok to be different and that it doesn't matter what size you are, you are accepted as much as anyone else.
   This doesn't just affect weight though. Orientation is another massive issue. In today's culture, we are lucky that  different orientations are allowed. Whereas in years gone by, the thought of "coming out" would have meant probably social exclusion and death. However some issues still carry on today. Homophobic people still have similar views from those 40 years ago, they shouldn't. Yes everyone is entitled to their own opinion but since when does somebody's orientation need to affect another person? Since when did "coming out" become something which only butch girls and girly guys could do? It didn't, but that's the stereotype and anyone who doesn't fit that, is more excluded that those in it.
As a world, we are very judgemental. If someone has a disability, they get bullied by more able people. If someone is gay, they are picked on by those who find it "wrong". If someone is fat, they are bullied by those who are "stick thin".They are bullied because they have what people think is a weakness. Just because people are different to you, it doesn't mean they are weak. If anything, it means you are weak. They can quite happily get on with their life, yet you can't. You are the one with the problem, not them.
Media plays such a big part in the ideological person. But my question is: What is the ideological person? and Who decides it? Surely you can't say that the bible decided it. Most people who are homophobic, xenophobic etc are also non religious. So are they cutting their noses off to spite their face?
   Remember, if we were all the same, we would be boring. I'm proud to be different. Everyone should be, but unfortunately that is not the case.
Be who you want to be. It is your life, not somebody else's. Don't fit the mould.

Tuesday, 14 February 2012

Happy Valentines Day

Well hello there.
Today is Valentines day. That can either be a good or a bad thing. For me it is neither. Even though I've been with my boyfriend for nearly 2 years I still don't appreciate Valentines Day. The idea is cute but other than that, nothing. If you can't treat your partner like a prince or princess all the time then you must be some lousy partner. I understand that this one day means you can really push the boat out, which is cute.
For singletons Valentines day is another day to mock how you are not in a relationship. However it is a good thing, it means you don't have to spend as much money.
So to all those loved up couples and those lucky singletons.
Happy Valentines Day!
Happy Tuesday!!!

Sunday, 12 February 2012

Nobody's perfect.

Well hello there.
Today we mourn the death of the great Whitney Houston. She was an icon to many, including myself and while I wasn't alive when her greatest success occurred , I have grown to love many of her songs. She is now one of my many icons who have recently died, Michael Jackson, Patrick Swayze to name but a few.
It's scary to think that people who you grew up with, who inspired you and amazed you are slowly moving on to pastures new. Where they can be free once more. It's sad also. For many of these awe inspiring people suffered, before they died.
Yes I can't say that I agree with some of the things that Michael Jackson did or deny that Whitney Houston was an alcoholic druggie or whatever but that's not why they are so great. They are so great because they produced epic pieces of art which evokes so many emotions in people. Whitney's I will always love you song is an undeniable hit. Michael Jackson's Billy Jean, pure gold. Patrick Swayze as an actor, is unbelievable. These people all had incredible talent and it's a shame that they died so young and so painfully.
We shouldn't slander these people for mistakes they made, after all nobody's perfect. With the "fame game" your every mistake is highlighted a hundred times over. They can't help having imperfections but it makes their pure talent that little bit more special. There are many out there who have the imperfections but only few which share such a great talent.
We need to remember these people for their true talent. I will always love you Whitney.

Thursday, 9 February 2012

Tuesday, 7 February 2012

Mr Music will you play?

Well hello there.
 You ever get that feeling when you listen to a song? I would say what the feeling is but it's different for everyone. Sometimes that feeling is happiness, maybe due to memories or just the general beat. Sometimes that feeling is sadness, maybe you actually listened to the lyrics or again memories. Like I said, it depends on the person.
This is why I love music. For everyone it evokes something different. It can be interpreted however, even if it was meant to mean something entirely different.
Music teaches us something that nothing school could teach us. It teaches us to explore ourselves, to develop and question things. Music allows us to be individuals. This is why I hate those that judge someone by their choice of music. For how can you judge someone on their music as it's individual to them. It's like judging someone on their name.
 Music is my life and I love it. It helps me through the good times and the bad. It holds many memories and teaches me many things.
La la la la la la

Friday, 3 February 2012

2,4,6,8 who do we appreciate!

Well hello there.
 Today was a rather eye opening day for me. Today it was fancy dress at sixth form. Now normally the thought of participating in these days doesn't really appeal however this one did. It was dress up as something that starts as the first letter of your name. E.g Astronaut for Albus Dumbledore. Anyways I had been thinking what to do but never came up with a concrete idea.
  10 minutes before i was due to leave my house this morning I thought why not see if I could come up with something and amazingly I did. A cheerleader. Although as I don't possess any pom poms i was off duty. Anyways being a cheerleader involves wearing a skirt and at the moment in England, its freezing. This didn't bother me but as I walked out of my house I became paranoid. I'm the last person to wear skirts (In England mind) but today I was going out in minus temperatures for fancy dress. So i text a friend to meet me att he top of my road, and they did.
Walking to school was pleasantly surprising, as I was walking with a half Clark-Kent Superman and Robin from Batman and Robin, so the stares were minimal. However because the whole school wasn't in uniform there was a few OH MY GOSH, WHAT IS SHE WEARING moments from certain younger years. They obviously didn't know I was a sixth former. Anyways these made me really self conscious but as the day went by I felt less awkward and more normal...ish.
 Today has taught me, forget what people think. You should do things you're comfortable with and let the haters hate.
Anyways adios for now. xx

Thursday, 2 February 2012

Lets get creative!

Well hello there.
 Haven't blogged in a while due to the fact that school has needed my attention and when I'm free, I find myself drawing.
 I love drawing, I'm not very good at it but i love it. So far I've drawn all sorts of things, mainly still-life and stuff from pictures. But hey ho. I love it due to the satisfaction I get from re creating an amazing picture however not everything I do, I like. I can't draw people and the one I drew today of me and the best friend is terrible.... yet it is my second go at faces.. and many people suck at drawing them. I mean look at picasso, how much worse can you get.! Jokes ;)

I don't just love drawing though. I'm a major drama fan. I adore acting. It's one of my favourite hobbies ever. Even above drawing.  I miss it so much, since I've had to stop what with having school and work commitments etc. I like to think that I'm good at it, the last performance I did I had a few comments. When people found out I was quitting that drama group, many said, "Remember, keep acting! you're a little star, you can go far if you wanted to" I miss these people. We came from totally different backgrounds yet we were family.

 I do dabble in the singing and dancing also as I have done a few musicals and the odd concert. One Christmas concert to be precise. But they aren't my strongest forte. Doesn't stop me dancing and singing round my room every so often though.

Anyways I like to think I get the creative genes from my family. My mum can draw, my granddad can draw, my Nan can draw and paint and they are all big drama queens!

Anyways that's enough creativity for one afternoon.  <---- me acting a few years ago.