It's sad when people who gave you the best memories, become a memory.

Hey there.
As you well know,I've been rather busy with exams and work so as a consequence I've lost my social life.
Now I'm not particularly complaining because it was pretty dismal anyway but what I miss is the friendships that I had before my busy schedule started.
Whilst acting I gained so many friends, people who were like family to me. Yet 9 months after stopping, I've lost contact with virtually all of them, occasionally the odd text here or there but that's about it.
Similarly, my school friends who I spent the "best years of my life" with have become distant. We do different things now and I'd love to spend time catching up, if I had that time in the first place.
My holiday friend is another example, even though we haven't seen each other since my holiday and there is the usual consensus that holiday friendships are fleeting, I thought we could make it last. Yet this similarly has grown to become stilted and awkward. :(
All of the above gave me some great memories and many promised me that those memories wouldn't be the last however as is usually the case when people split and return to their normal lives as such, you grow apart and have less in common that what you thought so friendships become strained.
 It's so refreshing when people make the effort to sustain a friendship, I mean, it's possible. It's got to be.
If not, then I would love to be able to have a friendship where you don't talk for ages, then when you do see each other, it's completely natural and like you'd never been apart.
I love the memories I've gained from these people and I will cherish them forever. They make me smile and after all, smiling is healthy.
x

Still confused...

Well hey there.
Even though I've been on here for a little while, I'm still so confused as to how to use this... sad times.
On other notes, Exams are coming soon.Wooo! Or not. Dreading them.
I'm imagining results day and I get 2 Bs, an A and a C...so thinking positive. Alot of positivity. Otherwise I will not survive the next week, let alone the exams.
Anyway if you've got exams coming up, Good Luck!
x

Long time no blog

Well hey there.
 A lot has happened since my last blog, apologies for not blogging, been busy.
Well, I taught my year 10's and it went surprisingly well. Woo!
Handed in my English Language coursework which is a huge relief. It was starting to get on my nerves.
There was also Easter. I spent my Easter Sunday on a plane, train and in an automobile, back from my holiday.
To put it frankly, I needed a break so the mother and I decided to have a little holiday in Tunisia. What a lovely place. Lovely weather, nice people, nice food. Only downside was the fact it was cold at night.
Upon returning I found I had acquired an ear infection so the last week of my Easter holiday was spent in bed or going dizzy. Fun.
Now I'm currently doing all the exam prep, oh and playing cards in Biology. And I ask myself why I suck at this subject. Anyway until next time.
 x

No me gusta el colegio

Well hello there.
Crikey! It's like March, already! Apologies for the delay in blogging but been extremely busy. School school school school work work work.. etc etc Fun!
Got my grades back last Thursday and well I was rather disappointed, a U in Biology and a D in ICT. I mean everyone told me that A levels were difficult but seriously? I managed to get an A in my mock ICT so to slip to a D is gutting. The only thing I have to cheer me up is the fact that noone in 2 classes ( so about 40 people) got above a C. Biology I was let surprised about, having struggled with it since the beginning. A grade would have been nice though.
Similarly Coursework deadlines are looming and its a lot of pressure as I want the best grades possible, but it is so much work for so little.
In all honesty, the only light relief I had last week was helping in my Year 10 Spanish class. They always manage to cheer me up.
Although, next week I have to do a 15 minute activity leading them, on my own. So pretty scared about that, as even though they are all lovely, the prospect of having to teach them is like ARGHHH.
Anyways, thats my depressing couple of weeks.
Adios Amigos.
x

I'm Sorry

This is a bit of a message to my friend.
I want to say Sorry. We live so far apart and I met her on holiday but we promised each other we would stay friends and so far we have. Yet the strains of not seeing each other and living so far apart, makes our friendship difficult.
 We have different lives and so our only ways of communicating through the day is via text, however if one is having a bad day, they might not necessarily text the other, so a miscommunication happens.
 I really do miss her and I just want to say nobody is perfect.
I'm sorry, being such a happy person makes my low moments incredibly low and sometimes that means I say/write things I don't mean.
Sorry.
xx

Don't judge.

Well hello there.
 Back to school after half term so got lots of work. Anyways I listen to a lot of music to help me get through the huge work load and it got me thinking.
Why do people judge people on what they listen to?
I mean, how can one person say that another person can/can't listen to something? Due to the fact they don't like it? Its just wrong.
I like most music. I got brought up on Frank Sinatra, Blondie and S club 7. Well and a lot more but you get the drift. This means that my music taste is broad. I love everything virtually.
Which is why I get annoyed when people say "oh you can't like JEDWARD" or "One Direction"...why not? Alot of people do! Ok, I'm not into fangirling or whatever it's called but there are a few people who i do love more than most. Yet when I say to someone "oh JEDWARD is awesome" they respond with something "but they are rubbish, you shouldn't be listening to them". Sorry, since when did it affect you?
 Everyone should be able to listen to whatever they want. Without getting judged. I'm not a big fan of Justin Bieber but I don't judge everyone who does. I admire them and have slight worries at their almighty admiration for the poor guy. Anyways all I'm saying is, Music is a part of everyone's lives. Don't control people to what makes them happy. Simple.
Rant over. x

I'm sick of always making the effort.

Well hello there,
Do you ever get those moments when you wonder " if I died tomorrow,who would miss me?".
I get those from time to time and usually when I've been really busy that day. That's because when I'm busy, I have no time to text people and have a chat. Which is why when someone texts me first, I'm happy.
When I have plenty of time to myself and I'm happy, I don't mind making an effort to text people. Even when I'm slightly busy, I'll text those who I know would text me first. Yet when I'm really sad, I'll text no one. I'll wait for someone to make the effort, but nobody does.
Like today for example. I went to work at around 10, so didn't bother to text anybody. I hoped by the time I'd finished, someone would have text me, but no! So I text my friend saying " hope you have a good day", no reply. Fair enough but she then had the cheek to update her Facebook status "via mobile". Little things like this really annoy me hence why I often wonder; If I was to die tomorrow, out of my friends,who would care?
Rant over.